Falling in it again

I am not very sure that how people say that life doesn’t give you a second chance or rather chances. One starts believing it just because people around them say it so often that it’s just become a perception of one’s about life because of the people cribbing about it so loudly. Life always gives us second chance or chances but we are the one who become so ignorant while cribbing about the life we are living. I also start believing in the same way, when become frustrated with life but whenever i do so, life just pass by me whispering in my ears. Sometimes i am cribbing about the life so deafening that i can’t hear those whispers and i keep cribbing about the life but sometimes i am able to listen those whispers. Yes, these are the whispers in which life gives us a clue of the second chance or chances.

After Sandy, i never thought that i am going to have a second chance in my life to feel it again in the same way. I had forgotten that this is something which is not within our control and it somehow slowly a digs a way to deep down your heart like always. Yes, i am feeling it and enjoying it again. I think this is one of the magnificent moments where you realize that falling is not bad at all in some cases and you enjoy your falling in it again and again. This has nothing to do with time but yet it grows deep and deeper with the time. Since when i realized that I have started falling in it, i have started looking forward for new days and new opportunities in a different way and with a new joy. Every day and every moment is unpredictable in this and uncertainty is the most certain thing in it. Who has done to this me??? Well i can only say that she is an angel from the heavens and god has sent her in my life walking with a gorgeous smile to brighten up my life. It has been just 2 months that i had a first talk with her and it looks to me that i know her since a long time but still i have so much to know about her. Everything about her interests me and makes me inquisitive to know about her more, it can be anything from dogs to cultures, songs to jokes, movies to friends etc etc. I love everything about her.......... The way she smiles, the way she jokes, the way she play around with me, the way she pops up her eyes on shocking things, the way she nodes her head on agreement, the way she pulls my leg and flaunt that gorgeous smile, the way she laughs on my jokes, the way she shorten her eyes to show anger.....there are so many expressions that i can be out of words but i might not be able to tell every expression of her.... A single thought of her excites me and talking to her give me a smile throughout the conversation. I can feel that contentment which i lost and i am so glad that i found it back through her in her. She has a kid with in her and its so tender every time you strike a conversation, you can feel it. Internet has been a huge invention of mankind and i am in so much of agreement with that, doesn't matter what people say about it but yes it has been a great invention for sure, at least for me. I never felt that i am thousands of miles away from her as i always imagined her with me all the time, where i look at her and smiles and she smiles back at me . I always cherish every moment and every minute when i talk to her and it all keep piling up as good memories of my life which i would love to open again and again for my whole life. I am sure that whenever i will look back and look at them, i would get the smile back doesn’t matter how much rough time i would be facing at that moment in my life. I always want to meet her once, cuddle up with her, hug her in my arms tightly, hold her hand with mine and sit by on a seashore and watch the sunset along with her. It all feel so fascinating that i wouldn’t want it to let it go and i am sure that i would wish that time would stop over there so that nobody can come in between those precious moments and i can live my whole life in those moments. Everything in her keep me with herself all the time, her stubbornness, the bossy instructions, her own way of pulling my leg, her modesty, her humbleness, her caring nature, her compassionate mind, her loving heart and what not else.... i am so much within her that i do accept her with all what she have , doesn’t care what people say.

I am sure that someday i will meet her and able to feel in real what i keep feeling within my soul and my heart and maybe i can express it out that how much she means to me and how precious is she for me. Her surprise brought so much happiness with that chocolate box. The chocolates were different and so was their taste.... it had that touch that just can’t be described because you can feel it and you have no words to describe it. I am not sure that what all i am writing, may be it doesn’t make any sense but i am so happy while writing it down because it gives me an immense pleasure to write about her and my feelings about her....I guess this is what keep me talking to her more and more everyday and i still has to figure out that how this all happens.

I have started feeling jealous with Smarty because i would love to switch his life with me as of now and the reason is very obvious. If i would have been on his place then definitely i would have considered myself really lucky and again the reason is very obvious. The reason is obviously her. She is a pleasure to talk with and i am sure that every man on this earth would love to talk to her and spend time along with her. You can never get bored in her company and she will keep you busy with her pranks and sweet talks....I don’t know since when i started feeling this way and when i realised this then i was so thankful to her that she brighten up it once again and i am so loving it every day. I know that i am falling for her and i am enjoying this...i don’t want to get over from it as this is one of things which make me happier everyday .....I just want to fall in it deeper and deeper and never want to get over from it.........Falling in it has its own charm.......

Thanks for walking in my life and making it happier and pleasant once again. I am “FALLING IN IT AGAIN”